An enduring struggle has been created to help anybody who has been struggling with mental health issues caused by childhood sexual abuse and wants to change their outlook on life.
The author of the posts on this site has been suffering daily from the effects of his childhood sexual abuse he suffered for nearly forty years. This has been a long, very tiring and life changing experience. In essence this website will be covering all of the emotions, issues and hopefully the elements that will help him and people overcome these.
From the moment I wake I deal with fear, anxiety, worry, depression, shame and guilt. I don’t know who I am anymore. I haven’t done for along time as my world has been controlled and guided by these powerful and destructive emotions. These powerful emotions have changed my way of thinking, programme my mind to expect the worst and caused me to loss my identity.
I will be detailing my attempts to address my mental health symptoms in blog posts as this journey unfolds before me.
I can not hide what has happened to me any longer. There may be people who scoff at my writings and thoughts.
There may be people who laugh and dismiss my emotions and feelings regarding how I have lived my life, that is their choice.
I need to get better. I am so stressed, tired and feeling so low and depressed that I am struggling to function. My mind seems predisposed to create and intensity issues that I have to deal with. Most of my daily thoughts are negative. There is no happy outlook. I feel like I am just going through the motions and surviving.
Every member of my family has had to deal with my anxieties and depression and my overpowering thought process. It has affected all of their lives in many ways.
I want to be alive long enough to help my two sons develop into happy, creative and amazing people. I want to see them start their own family’s. I want them to remember me as a happy and relaxed person who they enjoyed spend their time with. Not the person who I am right now.
I’m scared that this will not happen unless I come to grips with who I am, how past events have shaped my life and make the changes required to see my dream of happiness be fulfilled for my sons.
My happiness was robbed from me. I will not let the same happen to my sons.
